Tuesday, 6 May 2014
How to make time
I feel a bit like I have been neglecting this online space, shushing it and grumpily telling it to get to the back of the line again. I'm full of "not now's" and "I'm too busy, maybe later's". As a working mom I'm very aware of those lines; despite my best intentions, they're uttered all too frequently. I wish I could make time. Make it in the sense of weave it with my fingers, create it and shape it into tangible strips that I could tape all over my life. Tape it to time spent with my family, more casual outings, more dates, more healthy eating, just a bit more exercise, more really listening when the kid wants to tell me some long-winded, complicated story. I'd stick some extra time onto extending and developing my interests at work, to writing, to meeting my own deadlines and goals. Just a bit of extra time to make it all less rushed and bumped up against each other.
Dreams and flights of fancies I guess. Until it happens, I'm left to try capture little moments, make little hollows into the busy surfaces of the every day and to apologise for not offering more.